The Pieces That Are Missing

The Pieces That Are Missing 

When emotions have run out, and your ego has gone back to its place;

When life has returned to it's humdrum, the crises stowed away.

Your heart beats the way it should and the brain is not buzzing,

That is when you will know, that there are pieces that are missing.

Not in the tears, in the drama, not even in the passionate out cries,

but in the moment when you turn the steering wheel into your drive,

When the engine is cooling down and you pause to heave a sigh.

You will know what is missing, what is stealing the pieces of your life.

When you are trying to read a book and something gets in the way,

When the television is turned on but something steals your attention away,

When you have learned to live life with dismissing laugh,

And found distractions which you probably love as much.

then you will recall the unfinished business,

the stories you left untold,

or the passion you left out in the cold,

the trip you never went on,

and the people you passed on.

Then you will know which ones mattered, the ones that always will,

Then you get up and get them, there are empty spaces to fill.

My Personality Disorder.. Ahem!

Of all the madness which resides inside my petty soul the one which drives me craziest is my desire to prepare for the worst... all the time.. naah almost all the time.. okay a lot of times! I know I know, a lot of you out there feel exactly the same way; but it's crazy even thinking you can one up life at giving surprises.. so yes as always Life has the last laugh. My friends actually say that I am a very sorted kind of person, I usually already know exactly what I wanna do which of course is natural when you spend so much grey matter drawing up life grids in your head.. now what's a life grid???

A written version of it would look somewhat like this:

(Situation 1, Person 2): (Action B, Reaction G)

But guess what happens Life gives me Situation 12001 when I have been able to think about only 12000; and bam all my life grids blow up in my face and then oh boy do I lose my bearings. My brain goes into turbo mode trying to draw up a life grid for this one but all that happens is... BURN-OUT!

Hence Advise to myself: Sometimes it's important to let go and go with the flow. To not judge, to not react, to not control, to not think but to just breathe and take in life leisurely.. like lying on the grass on a lazy winter afternoon, or warming your hands on a warm cup of tea as the rain pelts on the window panes and melts into silver drops... slowly letting life flow through you, not challenging life but letting life lead you by hand, and take joy in the many blessings which surround us always.

"God does not play dice with the universe; He plays an ineffable game of His own devising, which might be compared, from the perspective of any of the other players, ie., everybody, to being involved in an obscure and complex version of poker in a pitch-dark room, with blank cards, for infinite stakes, with a Dealer who won't tell you the rules, and who smiles all the time.” 

Inspiration from the news

I find reading the news a exercise in depression but the first article I read today morning got me excited. Google's first employee is heading to Khan Academy, one of the most ingenious solutions for education & a reaffirmation of my faith in the fact that technology will probably play a huge role in solving many of the basic problems we are still struggling with such as hunger, education, population etc.

If u haven't checked out Khan Academy you must do so immediately at khanacademy.org

Say it with a Picture!

MBA fever everywhere!

Q. What do you want to in life?
A. I want to do an MBA.

FYI: You cannot do an MBA in life! 

January: To Educate myself

Realized I need deadlines to get started on my resolutions.

11. Read a book a week.  ( Reading 3 books together, should be done with 4 by EOM)
17. Read a children's book every 2 months. ( Already got Tintin from the library.. it's a comic I know but I am very excited)
28. Spend at least 6 hours a week one education. ( 24 hours of education is going to be tough, since I have not started)
25. Find homes for more street dogs. Spread awareness and run collection drives. Do at least 1 project a  month. (Already started a collection drive, need to get more energy in though.. sometimes you have to drive a drive :P)
31. Laugh till my stomach hurts; at least once a month. (Almost, but my standards are high.. :D)

Why do we make New Year resolutions?

 To grow, to make progress and to move forward in life; change is required and this change itself sometimes requires some kind of stimuli, a turning point, a change of weather, a fresh start.. and this is exactly what every New Year offers us a chance to start afresh and live our lives exactly the way we dream't and hence we resolve to do things differently. Whether we pass or fail in our endeavors I think it's important to make a start because sometimes change can only happen slowly.

2011 was the year of lessons and 2012 shall be the year of Grand Plans. 

The two most important things I learnt which shall be the guiding principles for my 2012 resolutions are:

• Only if you love life truly, will life truly love you back. If you are scared and hold back; life will hold back from you too.
• There is only one question to ask,"What would you do if you were not afraid?"  Asking this to myself always helps me take some of the more difficult decisions in my personal and professional life.

Now moving onto the fun part of actually making my resolutions, first I'll mention some of the basic principles on which my resolutions are based.

• I want to improve my health. Exercise more, eat healthier and cut back on the toxins.
• Educate myself further. I already have a college degree but I don't want to just study for a degree. There is so much to know out there and I want to dedicate some amount of time increasing my knowledge.
• To say "yes" to all the stuff close to my heart including causes ( my favorite animal shelter) and hobbies (painting, cooking).
• To nurture all my relationships far and close with trust, honesty, respect and love. To keep making deposits in the emotional wealth banks of my relations. A phone call, email, chat, facebook, a lunch date, a drink with the boys... the options are endless. And of course most importantly to love myself and spend time doing things I love, to enrich my mind, body and soul.
• And last but not the least to live life queen size. Travel, be spontaneous, do random crazy things, laugh till my stomach hurts, to talk without thinking, to explore, have fun and soak it all in.

My actual resolutions should come in a more fun format and I have to think carefully as I am one year away from hitting quarter life crisis and maybe the world will end so 2012 will have to be lived properly and thoroughly.

Cheers!